Dave Matthews !!

Spring is here and Dave announced his tour dates. To celebrate I decided to make Dave inspired onesies!! Yes...I know a little neurotic. But going to see Dave is a very big event every summer and my child will be experiencing these events. I thought they should have the proper attire!

Music

As most of you know I love music. I like all types of music and if you listen...you can tell my mood by what I am listening to. I was recently in the car driving to Baltimore for a soccer tournament and had lots of time listen to music on my Ipod. It was then that I found how many songs I can relate to the adoption. I secretly love find songs that relate to events in my life...and this is no different. Rascal Flatts have so many songs with lyrics that strike a cord inside. Here are a few lyrics...I think you'll understand:

I woke up this morning

With this feeling inside me that I can't explain

Like a weight that I've carried Been carried away, away

But I know something is coming I don't know what it is

But I know it's amazing, you save me

My time is coming

And I'll find my way out of this longest drought

(from Feels Like Today)

You waved your hand and it was done

Said let it be and there it was

A mountain, so high, it broke through, the sky

A canyon, so deep, it'll bring a man to his knees

I've seen what you can do

I've seen you make miracles and hopeless dreams come true

(from To Make her Love Me)

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,

And each road leads you where you want to go,

And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,

I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,

If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,

All the ones who love you, in the place you left,

I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,

And you help somebody every chance you get,

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,

And you always give more than you take.

(from My Wish)

For the days this rollercoaster ride has got me feeling down and out:

You feel like a candle in a hurricane

Just like a picture with a broken frame

Alone and helpless Like you've lost your fight

But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

Cause when push comes to shove

You taste what you're made of

You might bend, till you break Cause its all you can take

On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough

You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off

Then you Stand, Then you stand

(from Stand)

And in case L changes her mind...or those moments when I feel this may never work out:

I set out on a narrow way many years ago

Hoping I would find true love along the broken road

But I got lost a time or two

Wiped my brow and kept pushing through

I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are

Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars

Pointing me on my way into your loving arms

This much I know is trueThat God blessed the broken road

That led me straight to you

(from Bless the Broken Road)

So....there you have it. If you havent listen to any of their songs...and you can stand a little country now and then I recommend checking out a few of these songs. Lets hope the last song wont really relate to our situation. But if it does...it does....and I will have something to drown out my sorrows as I gain a brighter perspective. Dont worry....a little sarcasm is healthy.

Birthmoms & Bird Poop!

Its only been two weeks since I last wrote...but soooo much has happened. Nothing big....just quirky little events that have made my life interesting. I accidentally caught the neighbors outdoor cat in the top of my garage door. Yes....I really did say that. I didnt see it...drove to work...then Mike called me after the neighbor told him that he saw two cat legs sticking out of the top of our garage door. I cant even explain...ask me the story sometime you see me. All I can say is one in a million! To make my life even more interesting..I was walking into the gym when a bird flew by and pooped on my head. I never made it to the gym that day. :-( But they say that is good luck. Hmmm??

My good luck is that we heard from another expectant mother. She is young...has a long story...and is very unsure what she wants with her pregnancy. Nothing has changed with L but you never do know. I am going with the flow right now and trying to live day by day without thinking too much about it. I am actually able to do this right now.

Mike turned the big 30 on the 14th. He celebrated hard during the day at Pittsburghs St. Pattys Day Parade. He then felt terrible during his Casino Party that I threw for him. But...we had lots of fun.....and he was happy that everyone was able to make it in for the party. He has since forgotten he is 30 and is enjoying playing his playstation NHL game everynight. He decided to have a mini mid life crisis and bought 22 inch rims for the SUV. At the same time.....he had a moment of dementia and forgot to tell me about this purchase. Hmmm??

L Update: She says she is starting to show now. She is still unfortunately struggling with morning & night sickness. I will get to go with her the beginning of the month to an ultrasound appointment. She is about 11 weeks along. Ugh...only 11 weeks...time has now stopped moving.

Our Anniversary

Some of you may be wondering why I am writing about my anniversary when it is in October. Well....L ( this is how I will refer to her from now on ) went to the doctor this week...her due date is Oct 15, our anniversary!! We couldn't believe it! She was also surprised as she thought it would be a little earlier. I am secretly hoping she delivers a little earlier...so I dont always have to have a birthday party on our anniversary.

We also got to meet L this week. (3/6/09) We met at the agency with the social workers present. We shared photo albums since we both like to scrapbook. She shared pictures of her daughter and she is absolutely adorable. We were all a little nervous but that was to be expected. Since we had spoken so much before the meeting we were able to share information with the social workers but nothing new between us. It was a little funny...since usually the social workers will be telling us things....and instead we were telling them things. Leave it to me to find myself in a "unique" situation.

Now what??

From here we are officially "matched" and out of the books. We are now committed to L and her to us. We are able to go to the sonogram appointments...her next one is on April 3rd. We are trying not to get overly excited...but that is nearly impossible. I am now making a list of things to keep me busy during the next 7 months....something to keep me distracted. Our social worker feels there a lot of promising things...and a few red flags. But overall a good possibility. Time will tell. As always we are intellectually telling ourselves that this may not work out...but our hearts are praying that it does.