8 weeks

I thought long and hard about whether I should write this post. But as you can see...I gave in and decided to tell the news....we have been talking to an expectant mother for a few weeks now!! I know....we said we wouldn't tell....we said we could keep a secret...we said we didn't want to get any one's hopes up. Well...we never thought we would have the opportunity for what we are now in the amidst of. We were contacted by an expectant mother by email, after she had searched the Internet at family profiles and kept going back to our profile. She has since started working with the agency and doing all the paperwork they require. She has just recently gone to the doctor and is estimated to be only 8 weeks pregnant!! For all of you who are unfamiliar with the adoption process...it is NOT typical to be talking to an expectant mother whom is only 8 weeks pregnant. Usually you are matched closer to the end of the pregnancy or right after the birth. This mother wants us to be involved during the term of the pregnancy and at the birth. The whole triad (agency, us, birth parents) are working through this step to come to a cooperative agreement. This agreement is a good faith agreement which can be broken since it has no legal value. The reason I decided to share this news was two fold. One: I cant keep this secret for 7 months! Two: If this all works out I wanted all of you to be part of this miracle...because that's what this will be! What I have learned this last few weeks involves the following: I have learned what it how it feels to get that (+) pregnancy test ; I now wonder how first time expectant mothers get anything done....because baby is always on your mind; I have realized how blessed I am in my life.

I'm sure some of you are thinking... "how wonderful...BUT...what if she changes her mind?" My response: ok..she changes her mind. Yes, I will be sad and disappointed. But I know there is another plan for me and another plan for the child. This birth mother is offering Mike and I an experience we never thought we would have...a chance to be at a sonogram...a chance to be at a birth...a chance to hear about how the pregnancy is going. Even if she decides at the last minute to parent the child...we will have experienced things we never thought we would be able to...and for that we are thankful. So as this journey progress's, please keep an open mind...this may or may not be our child....disappointment may come in many ways...BUT until that happens Mike and I will be getting ready to be parents by the fall!