Broken

Can I tell you again that 2011 has been so good to me. 2011..you are now almost 2 months old and I want to say keep it up...you are doing great and I am loving it. If you go back and read a few months back I spoke about not doing a "New Year's Resolution" but instead just doing it, whatever the "it" may be. And so far 2011 has let me accomplish so many "its". Love IT!

The one "it" that I didn't expect or see coming can be summed up with the bible passage:

"Break my heart for what breaks yours".

This passage has come up sooo many times in the past few months that I am slightly scared for the truth that lies behind it. I can feel my heart breaking for bigger things and part of me wants to RUN fast and far. I can feel my faith growing...which is good....but I know it is leading to me towards a path that is going to be hard. I know I will face doubt and questioning. But what can you do when your heart is breaking...for something bigger than you...something that makes His heart break. Could I be anymore elusive?! I would love to share more but I don't feel it is the time. I hope that in 2011 YOU read the above passage and ask that your heart breaks for what breaks His.

While me heart breaks, my everyday life is splendid. Leah is growing into an awesome TODDLER! How did that happen? She is saying 20 words including: fish, apple, eat, dog, Hi, Bye, Dada, Mama (occasionally!), Moo, cheese, please, poo poo (hmmm....who taught her to say such a thing!), yucky, Elmo's World, sippy, up, duck. I'm forgetting some right now, but it sure is fun. She learned to smile for the camera and has the cutest cheese face. I was starting to feel like a bad momma when she would run from me all the time but now she runs to me. I'm so glad that stage is over...my momma heart was so sad during that stage. There are so many days when I want to stay home from work and just be with her. BUT she loves to be with other kids...and she loves getting out of the house....and we both LOVE her babysitter. I know her daycare is a good thing for her....she truly is a little singing social butterfly. And yes...she signs ALL.THE.TIME. Maybe we will have a little musician on our hands?! She is using her spoon pretty well and can stab a few things with her fork. She loves to dance. She talks herself to sleep. She now chooses if she wants to cuddle or just get in her crib. She loves to brush her teeth. She loves to talk on the phone to Nana, Mimi, Poppy, and Papa. God is good. He has surely blessed this family and this home.