Finally

After a "longer than we wanted" wait, we finally have our homestudy!! I was so excited but my excitement didn't spill over to Mike. He was happy but didn't see the urgency to get the agency applications in the mail that very second like I did. Unfortunately my excitement quickly turned into frustration BUT it's ok...because we are two different people with different expectations and feelings. He HATES the adoption process. Therefore I get stuck with most of the tedious tasks. He is all for adoption and in support of another child...but trying to motivate him to help is nearly impossible. Fortunately we have a strong marriage and figured out how to handle this better....without me getting frustrated and stressed. So...after all of that, 3 agency applications were sent out in the mail on Thursday and arrived Friday! What a happy day for this family. One step closer to our next family member.
Then....with all of that excitement...I came across a situation for a baby who is already born. One of my secret obsessions is searching the internet for adoption situations. Yes, I admit that I spend way too much time doing that. I'm ok with it. I explained to Mike the situation and yesterday we sent in all of our paperwork. I think we might me completely delusional at this point. Getting a baby now goes against every ounce of "planning" we did. Now, planning in adoption is more of a fairytale wish, but we all like to believe we have a tad bit of control. After we sent in all of the documents I began to panic internally. We have no nursery set -up, I have no idea where all of those newborn supports are for the carseat, I have none of Leah's gender neutral clothing pulled out of those clothes bins let alone washed, I couldn't even begin to tell you where the bottles are stored. REALLY?!? So we came up with a plan and it goes something like this: Turn office/craft room into a nursery. This requires the following: move all craft things to basement and organize this space, Move computer desk to spare bedroom and organize this space, take down wallpaper and refinish walls, paint everything in nursery (new baseboards, doors, window trim, ceiling and walls), get another crib and dresser, fill with baby things...which we either need to buy or find in our storage! Once again, REALLY?!? So...I've decided that if we end up with a baby this week we are in trouble. If this is not our baby, then maybe this was God's way of telling us to get started. Either way, I am ok with it.
Now that we are active I am asking everyone to say a little prayer for us, all of the expectant mothers who are struggling in their decision and for all those little ones who are finding their way home. This is a tough process and we as adoptive parents have the lightest load to carry. Sometimes I forget that...but truly it is the truth. Look for updates....maybe you'll get cute baby pictures or a torn apart room. I know everyone would like cute baby pictures better BUT either way you will get both nursery and baby pictures....someday.